Why do I feel like I’m wasting time when I’m not busy doing something I think is useful to me?

The “feeling” (as you call it) of wasted time arises from the belief that there is something to be done in order to Be. In Reality, it is an invitation for you to stop projecting yourself into doing, but to gradually recover your capacity for Being without time or space.

In order for you to understand: allowing yourself space for silence and inner listening, which gradually leads you to maintain this listening, whatever activity your physical body performs, will restore fullness to all your actions. Thus, the feeling of wasting time will vanish, because in deep contact with Who You Really Are, there is no time.
Is this clear to you?

Yes, it’s clear. But when I have this feeling I can’t get in touch with myself, with my Deepest Self.

What do you think is stopping you?

The fact that I have always been used to “doing” and not recognizing myself in Being.

This is correct, but I have a question for you: you know that your entire earthly experience is illusory, and has the sole purpose of Expanding by experiencing who you are not, to recognize yourself for Who You Really Are and live coherently with this.Now I ask you: you’ve experienced who you are not; the plans, convictions, and beliefs that have accompanied you up to this point served this purpose, including the belief that you had to act in order to Be, to prove to yourself that you were. Today you know that it’s a plan, a belief. And my question is: do you want to keep it or do you want to move beyond it?

I want to go further…

So…

… So for the joy of living in Being.

…so when you say “I can’t” do you put yourself in the position of moving on or remaining a victim of the belief?

I put myself in the position of being a victim of my belief

This is what’s helpful for you now: observe your attitude and make a choice to change it. At the moment of choice, something inside you will make you move into the Infinite Possibilities, beyond where you already are.
Is this clear to you?

Clear, but still difficult to implement always.

Don’t rush and don’t judge yourself. So, return to contact, return to inner listening, observe, and when you realize you’re failing in observing, take some deep breaths and imagine lying in the sun and letting yourself tan. You don’t have to ask the sun to tan you, you don’t have to do anything to get a tan: you just have to stay and welcome the sun’s rays.
Is this clear to you?

Yes.

So, it is only in experiencing this continuously that your belief will dissolve into nothingness, since “doing to Be” will no longer have value, or importance, or credibility since you will experience the Being that will give you the energy to do..

Excerpt of a Channeling from the Source session
of 22.02.2023