I am told all the time that I have to change, but I do not know how. I am a very material person. I need to see things ….. Can be because of my studies, the job that I do that is leading me to see things with my own eyes. But I have faith and I believe in intangible things. But in my life’s path, I lost my way, I am perennialilly confused, I take a road, then I get lost.I always tryed to please others, to be a good person, or maybe because I am afraid of my true beeing. Above all, I would like to help my son: I can not see him any more in this state, I can not cope with it any longer.

Now is my turn to ask you a question : “What do you want”?

I would like to see my son, beeing happy, serene, cheerful,, and me too.

So, do you want to continue acting, in order to please others.

Yes, this is one of my problems. I can not enjoy something if I can not share it with others.

So again my question is”what do you want”?

If I knew it! As long as I had to take care of my son, help him with his school work, the therapies, I was feeling well. But then when I have to do something for me, for my Beeing, then I stop. I am always dissatisfied, always looking for something. If I were to say what I want, I say money for when I am old, for my son, not because money is so important for me, but just to have money and have a goal, having with me a man that I love, because I do not love my husband anymore.

Al that you have said,has to do with the eathly dimension, but inside the Centre of your Centre, there is the answer in relation to what is necessary for your True You, to get fulfilled in relation to the incarnation that you have chosen.
Therefore, again the question is: “What do you want? What do you strongly feel inside You and that is pushing you in search of your fulfillment”? Remember that all what you see with your earthly eyes, is an illusion, there is nothing else, save You. Hence you say …. “I would like to have a man that I love, and that loves me” … My question is: do you love yourself?

No.

You said: “ I would like to see my son happy, smiling, fulfilled”. The questioni s; In relation to your Creative Power, are you fulfilled, happy”?

No.

All that appears other to you, is the external manifestation of what is happening inside yourself. You can not find outside, what is inside. The first question that you asked is “How can I change?” But in your idea of change, you are still thinking about something material

Yes.

The change, is not about doing: is about getting in love with Who you Really Are, beeing Conscious, listening to that Light that speaks without words inside yourself and lose yourself in It. Since You Are as I Am. Since all is One. What you are living, is the illusion of separation, and since you perceive yourself separated from The Whole, you perceive yourself separated from what you perceive is other. But in Reality, all Is One, and what the other is showing you, is just a projection and an indication of the next step that you can take. Therefore, the frustration, the isolation, the agitation that your son is showing you, are the frustration, the isolation and the agitation that you are living in your Creative Power about creating your life. The detachment, the judgement of your husband, is showing you the apathy and the judgement that is just referred to your attitude in regard to your Path of Expansion

Excerpt of a Channeling from the Source session
of 08.01.2019