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For two years now\u2026 I don’t remember\u2026 am I self-destructing or self-realizing? I don’t know what I want to do.<\/p>\n

In Reality, it’s both. What changes is your observation point.<\/span><\/p>\n

Now, in order to build the new, it is necessary to abandon or destroy the old.<\/span><\/p>\n

What you are experiencing is your instability of awareness: one moment you focus on moving toward your highest manifestation, and the next moment you place your attention on the lack, the limitation, the smallness you believe yourself to be, denying your Divinity.<\/span><\/p>\n

This constant swing between “seeing and feeling” Who You Really Are and “denying” Who You Really Are by returning to the egoic vision, characterizes this phase of your Path, which is perceived by you as heavy and inconclusive.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Excerpt of a Channeling from the Source<\/em> session
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